Currently Playing Silence in Black & White By Hawthorne Heights see related

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good weekend...feelin less alone. thats always a good thing!

eh.. im excited/nervous for hangin out w/ Mandy. i hope it wont be awkward..and i hope we are back to being bestfriends before i leave for college. life w/o that girl is SO hard. i love her so much<3 

just want to take this moment to say, i have the best boyfriend in the world. i love him SO much. honestly, i dont know where i would be with out him. we may have our ups and downs, but we always bounce back up! hes my bestfriend, and i love him w/ all my heart! Muah <3Willow&Courtney<3 forever

um..lets see short week ahead! tho let me tell you, this week would be ALOT better if i didnt have so much freakin work AMEN lauren about the hamlet thing..geez stupid teacherss!!. god dont teachers know, iv like totally checked out?! and so has the rest of the senior class?! no work ethic at all

basketball season, is comin to an end. tear. last regular season game this week, then paint branch is off to dominate the playoffs& become state champions..fuck yea! i will miss my cheergirls time a million. i love them to pieces<3 we def will need to have a "reunion sleepover"..scandlous!

PS: NEW FOUND GLORY CONCERT @ 930.  in march, and its like 17 bucks. does anyone want to go w/ me? i have no1 to go w/, cuz no1 appercaites good music! lol esp my loser bf! i dont want to travel to DC by myself..but oh gosh i would, to see some SEXAY JORDON ASS. but if u wanna come let me know!=)

Court*

pps: only like a 100 days left at paint branch...boost my face!

Currently Playing (What's The Story) Morning Glory? By Oasis see related

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went to church today..its gets better&easier each time i go. honestly last week, i couldnt wait to get outta there. but this week was better things are most certianly gettin better! funny moment: Mrs hauprich gave some lil toodles coins to put in a  bucket for our church, and all the lil kids put the coin in, and the black kid tried to steal his coin..damnit black ppl. hes fallin intot he streotype!lol

 me&mandy are hangin out afterschool weds, then were goin to Bible Study together!

umm lets see. Congrad all you new Terpies!=) humpf college descions are the hardest things ever. i mean right now. its between ECU&SU. i really want to go to college in Nc. but there are many reasons, and good reasons keeping me here. plus i still have to hear from towson(which at first, i had no interesting in, but now..there are some factors again pulling me towards that school) &Elon, which of course is my dream school. i dont know this is like the rest of my life! and i have to make the right choice for me to be happy. but the thing is..me being happy has alot of factors, and i dont know if i can meet them all. so how do i decided which ones are the most important ones? well i guess we will see..i have until May. and I find out from my other two colleges in the beginning of March!  dear lord.. THATS SOON!

ps: i would just like to say i love jacqui shelton, she is the sweetest girl in the world!!<3

well..ok im done. im gonna go memorize hamlet. i HATE THAT book. its so muchn effing work. oh well i at least its busy easy work.but later my  love is comein over!. were gonna make muffins&pancakes. our lives are centered around food!=)

Court

Currently Reading The Lovely Bones: A Novel By Alice Sebold see related

ok college update:

ACCEPTED: Salisbury, Frostburg,EastCarolina

Deffered: Elon,Towson,UMCP(its ok baby, well make it)

^i hear from elon&towson in march. and cp, i "got in" but i would have to do this 6 week long summer program, cuz my grades are up to there standard or w/e. well cant to that 1)cant afford it, 2)wouldnt be able to go to wc 3)waste my whole summer. i feel really speical so far i havent been rejected from any school, wow this time last year, i really thought everyone would reject me, and like i would be @ MC. im honestly so HAPPY!=)

LockIn...Great.

so the service last nite..outta control. it was about Death. and its werid, cuz i was talkin 2 my mom, and she was like "courtney i love you" and iw as ok..love u to loser. and she told me that the parmedics said the attack was REALLY bad.  iv had allergic reactions, but iv always had an epi pen, or something. but the parmedic said i was extremly lucky the hospital was only 5 mintutes away. cuz when they got there my thoart was closing..that is so werid. iw as thinking what if i had died last nite. i feel like iw ould have lead the most unfulling life ever. so im goin with that don said&my favorite band

Make Today Good(don)....sounds so simpe. but hey i makes sense+Sacrfice(don)+Livin Life Like Its Goin Outta Style-fob

Jealously..sucks

and let me tell you, im jealous of Ellen&Matt..and any other couple, who has like a close realtionship w/ the others parents. or for that matter, and realtionship at all. See my mom loves will..they can joke have fun, and she can yell at him, and he knows its all love. but wills parents. well they hate me. or @ least this dad does. his mom, i dont know, i dont think she hates..she just has no interest in gettin to know me. I can Never again, step foot in my boyfriends home..in fear of his Dad comin home and throwin a fit.i NEVER will be able to have a Family dinner w/ wills side of his family. i will Never go on vacation w/ will like Julie gets to. i have seen Mr. Marchica once since the fight. and he gave me the death stare. im honestly scared of that man, cuz i dont know what he is capable of. and that sucks...i feel like me &will are never gonna have a normal realtionship. and that i hurts, they never gave me a chance, like i could deal w/ it, if they got to knwo me and decided they didnt like me. but they never gave me that chance, and it hurts.

I LOVEYOU SO MUCH WILL..ALWAYS&FOREVER<3

Edit..ya iv been home all day so im bored

depressed. this is the  first time in my life, i haver NOTHING stable to fall back on. when i was little, i had my mother. well she is sick. and im leavin her next year. then as i got older i had my faith. and that got me thru everything, well im strugglin w/ that now. last year, when everything was crumbling, i was blessed w/ the most amazing friends anyone has every had. now there gone. then will walked into my life, and i always had him. well its offical, we wont be goin to the same college next year, and we dont know if we can will stay together.  and if nothing else, i have alwyas know where i was gonna be the following year. and i dont now. i have no idea where i should end up..and if ill make the right descion. I have nothing . everything in my life is so shakey. i feel so lost, and empty. like i feel so fuckin alone..and there is no one out there to save or help me. i dont like it...i just need someone, anyone, to be able to catch me if i fall.

"she cant even call up her friends and say help me save me life"_pink

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- Who am i

hi all..well im back on this thing. cuz for some reason, livejournal wont open my computer.

WELL... yesterday was senior banquet, and for the most part i had an amazing time. it was cool to be some place w/ JUST seniors!=) all though certain ppl are still pissin me off that is expected!..i just dont know why they have to be so mean.oh wellz, such as life. well i got some Cute pix, that will be posted soon. the food was good, and the dance part was even..gotta love those freaky pb girl. ok for the last part of the nite, apprently i had some allergic reaction??..and i started itching, and my thoart like closed up. so they had to call the ambulance...and stupid mrs. harriston wouldnt give me her epi pen. ass! then those fools wanted me to walk outside, and Kelly was..fuck no! come in here. so they came in, and gave me medicine&IVs. i didnt like that..all of sudden i got cold, and like started  convulsing. it was really scary! when i got the place, i like passed out! the medicine they gave me was so strong. OH YEA, i have the BEST cousin in the worlds, she looks out for me. THANX FOR RIDIN IN THE AMBULANCE W.ME! ya i slept till 2am. woke up w/ will&my mommie there. nice surpise then i passed back out, and will went home. they discharged me @ like 330. and i got home a lil after 4. all in all a goodnite...the allergic reaction thing would ONLY happen to me!! lol

well im gonna go 2 the grocey store w/ my mom, pick up will, go to the girls game. come home, and go to the LockIn. then Its Acedemic tomarrow..great get to spend my SATURDAY, w/ daniel bennet!cool, well @ least the cheer grls will be there!